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18 April 2007 @ 08:05 pm
A bit scared now...  
... okay, more than a bit... a lot scared.  I had an eye exam today and found out I need to have laser sugery on my right eye.  I see a retinal specialist every 8-12 months because I have what's known as a thinning of the retina in both eyes.  Apparently it's pretty common in people who are near-sighted, which I am.  After sitting in the waiting room for 2 hrs because the doctor had this impromptu meeting (just love when that happens...), I'm called in and he does the whole thorough checkup, noting some concerns my regular opthomologist had the last time I was there in November. 

Turns out I have a small tear in the retina of my right eye and it should be repaired because if I let it go it could just get worse and then the retina will detach completely, which would probably leave me blind.  The dr assured me it was a simple procedure that wouldn't take very long, hardly any recovery time, etc. but I keep worrying that something will go wrong and I'll end up blind in the eye anyway.  I guess I am too negative though.  Another thing that worries me is that I've never had anything like this done before... I'm worried that it'll hurt a lot and just the thought of being awake and actually SEEING what's going on (he said they usually don't put you under for this thing so I'd most likely be totally wake through it, if I don't pass out in fear) scares me.

I'm not entirely sure when I'll have to have this done but he told me the sooner, the better, and probably not any later than two weeks from now.  He's going to discuss it with my regular opthomologist and will give me a call on Monday. 

So yeah, I'm pretty scared about this.  If anyone's ever had anything like this done, or knows someone who's had it done, can you give me an idea of what it's like?  As I said the things that worry me the most are the possibility that something will go wrong and I'll end up blind, and the thought of being awake and actually seeing this all take place.

I really hope this isn't going to be as bad as I'm thinking....
Current Mood: scaredscared
Suzotchkasuzotchka1 on April 19th, 2007 12:19 am (UTC)
*HUGS YOU* It's okay to be scared. I've had a few surgeries (none on my eyes though) and it can be very frightening. I was awake when I had my arm surgery and it wasn't too bad. My suggestion is to talk to your doctor about your concerns. He'll be able to help you. *HUGS*
jessm78: S1 promo picjessm78 on April 22nd, 2007 11:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs. :) I did talk to my doctor on Friday and he helped a great deal. He said they do it all the time and it should be a very quick, easy procedure, so I'm feeling a bit better about it. *hugs back*
Maraseachanter on April 19th, 2007 04:27 am (UTC)
Lots of hugs, and good wishes. And good thoughts your way
Jenniferxariesgirl78x on April 19th, 2007 04:59 am (UTC)
*hugs Jess* I'll be thinking happy thoughts and praying for you. Good luck!
jessm78: being therejessm78 on April 22nd, 2007 11:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks guys, I really appreciate it. :) I talked to my doctor on Friday (turns out I'm having this done on Tues.) and he made me feel a bit better about it.

I really appreciate the thoughts, prayers and hugs!
Jenniferxariesgirl78x on April 23rd, 2007 03:49 am (UTC)
Hey, you're welcome! :)Let me know how everything goes.
Christine (aka) Pineapple >^..^<: mechris4short on April 20th, 2007 09:51 pm (UTC)
*looks around confused* how did I miss this post? I'm here now...


OH hon! I know everything will be fine! I'll update my prayer list and put you on it! Just relax, talk to your dr is a good idea... I know several pp who have had eye surgeries and they were nervous but said it was over in no time... and like no long recoveries either...

Praying for you my AU sis!!
jessm78: Cor Aijessm78 on April 22nd, 2007 11:56 pm (UTC)
*HUGS back* Thanks so much - really appreciate the prayers, AU sis. :) Talked to the dr. on Fri and I'm feeling better about it. So hopefully this'll go fine.

Thanks again - will keep ya posted. :)
brian_is_here22 on May 5th, 2007 12:00 am (UTC)
Ugh sorry about the multiple tries if they both reached you too. I wish LJ comments had edit buttons.

This post was a couple of weeks ago so I hope you're doing okay.

On a note that might make you feel good, I remember you were wondering about the state of Amanda and Michael's friendship because of how things have been going onscreen in Stargate. After reading the latest article in the SciFi magazine, I can honestly say I have no doubt that they are still great friends (and family). Annoyingly enough I think the D/V concentration is mainly due to the writers' desire to play with Vala since she's new and possibly a bit of them wanting to try and "straighten" Daniel up since I've gotten the impression that the writers aren't all that comfortable with how big the slash fanbase is. But hey, that's my cyncial side. I can say though that I'm positive it's not meant to be anything against the real life friendships/family of the cast. Have you read the SciFi article? Because Amanda describes a really nice moment between her, Michael, and Chris that I think says a lot about how deep and meaningful their friendship has been and still is and how much of a family they are. I can type it out if you haven't seen it.
jessm78: Fire and Waterjessm78 on May 5th, 2007 01:05 am (UTC)
No problem at all :) Thanks for asking, I'm doing fine now. I was basically worried for nothing.

That's great to hear. I think you're probably right - the writers do seem to have a lot of fun with Vala and the D/V interaction (plus the fact that JM admitted he's a D/V shipper... it's him and RCC definitely... and I guess we all know how RCC feels about the slash and all). I haven't seen that SciFi article, it sounds very interesting. Can you type it up? I'd love that. Only if it isn't too much trouble.
brian_is_here22 on May 5th, 2007 08:27 pm (UTC)
It's no trouble at all! I actually thought of you when I read it so I'm glad I could offer it.

This is what Amanda said about that last filming moment. I bolded the parts that I loved the most especially that last part (which is the part I thought you'd enjoy most):

Tapping agrees, and while she is moving her character to Atlantis for it's fourth season, she says the final day of shooting was like closing an important chapter of her life. "Rob Cooper did something spectacularly smart. He chose to shoot the very last shot with the team going through the Stargate, so the very last scene on the very last day of the series was us in the gate room and us stepping through. I get emotional just talking about it," she sighs. "It was such a beautiful way to end it. On that day, we all hung out in Christopher's trailer and told stories and laughed and cried. We got more and more emotional towards the last scene. It went late into the night, but the entire crew-office crew and people that normally would never be on set-were there, which was amazing. We were getting ready to shoot, but none of us would step on the ramp. But when it finally came time to turn the cameras around, then we went through, and it was this big emotional release and we all started crying, and then Rob said, 'We have to do it again!'" she laughs. "We did a few takes, and there were much tears, and we stood on the ramp, arms around each other, just looking out at the crew, and everyone was applauding. The gate room was full, and Christopher said something incredibly eloquent and didn't swear, which was amazing. But the absolute penultimate cool moment was Christopher, Michael, and I just looked at each other, and we all slipped away from the crowd and went up the spiral stairs into the briefing room. It was just the three of us, and we stood there and looked down at the gate. It was how we had started the series 10 years prior-when the three of us toured the set and we came upon the gate saying, 'Oh my God!' We were so emotional when we saw the gate the first time, and so we came full circle. We just stood there with our arms around each other and looked and went, 'Well-that happened.' We took a deep breath and we were all really proud of it. For me, I'll never forget it, and it was a really beautiful moment."
jessm78: Fire and Waterjessm78 on May 10th, 2007 05:08 pm (UTC)
Wow, thanks so much for typing all that up for me!! I really appreciate it. Sounds like a really nice moment - it is things like this that show us how they're still friends. Shame that we don't get to hear much about these things in between all the gushing about Daniel and Vala's chemistry as well as that of their actors'.

Speaking of which, have you seen MS' farewell video? I haven't, mostly because apparently he says something about Unending and I'm thinking I want to avoid that. But from the reports I've been hearing, he was back to gushing like mad over CB, and said that if they weren't both married, they'd make a great couple. I know it's his right to say what he wants and it's great that he likes working with CB and considers her a good friend, but it would be nice for him to say something about his other costars once in a while. I think (if I remember right what I heard) he mentioned CJ and some project they were doing, but that was all.