I mean seriously, how far do they have to go to break me? *sniffles*
So we start out with the boys being held at gunpoint. Hmm, from all the beer cans lying around, looks like they've had quite a wild night. *g* Which I guess would explain Walt and Roy (Disney? LOL) getting inside so easily. Only way our boys could be so careless is if they were stinking drunk or something.
My breath hitched when Sam was shot. Just like that, in cold blood. Dean's reaction and his expression afterwards was just....."you shoot my brother and I am so coming for your ass." They're other hunters who had a beef with Sam because he started the apocalypse. They said that killing him was right, but if they don't kill Dean, he'll be after them forever. Just as they fire the gun at him, we cut to the opening credits.
Dean is with the Impala when Young!Sam appears! Yay, Colin! Love that guy. They shoot off rockets and Dean realizes it's 4th of July, 1996. Aw, his expression... you can tell he's happy, having some fun. As they shoot off the fireworks, Young!Sam says Dad never would have let them do this and he thanks Dean, hugging him. Awww.
So Cas is now Kitt!Cas? LOL. Okay, not exactly, but speaking to Dean through the Impala's radio. Dean thinks it's a dream but he flashes back to what happened before (i.e. the shootings) and realizes he's dead. Dun dun dun. Not just dead, but in Heaven. Dean can't see Sam, but Cas tells him to follow the road and he'll find Sam.
Dean drives down the road and it leads to a big house. He goes inside and there's Sam, dressed in a suit and having dinner with a family. A young girl is sitting next to him, apparently smitten with him (she puts her hand on his thigh! LOL). Sam sees Dean and tells him it was Thanksgiving dinner when he was 11. Dean can't believe it and says they had good Thanksgivings. Sam said Dad was passed out. On the other hand, Sam can't believe it's Heaven because he's done some not-so-nice things.
A bright light surprises our boys and Dean tries to talk to Cas through a radio. Cas appears in the TV instead. Heh. He tells the boys that the bright light was Zachariah, who is trying to find them and get them back into their bodies. He tells them to find Joshua because he talks to God.
Well, it's definitely easy to see that Dean is desperate here, with the way he wants to find God (which totally ties in to how he was at the end of My Bloody Valentine, crying for help outside Bobby's place).
They're told to find the road again, and they see a race track from a car set, which Dean remembers. With that they end up back "home." A little tangent, but did anyone notice that Sam's wearing his reddish Salvation/Devil's Trap polo shirt? :D Anyway Dean thinks this whole thing is trippy and Sam agrees, because according to Dean's shirt (complete with teddy bear), he "wuvs hugs." LOL! Mary appears and asks Dean if he wants something to eat. The looks on their faces. Oh, boys. :(
Looks like this is Dean's heaven, flashing back to the time when he was a little boy and Mom was still alive. She asks him if he wants the crusts cut off of his sandwich, which amuses Sam. *g* When I first saw the teaser clip for this scene, I thought Mary didn't see Sam because he possibly wasn't born yet, but when she's on the phone with John she clearly says they have two boys. So Sam had to be an infant at the time. She just doesn't see Sam here because it's Dean's heaven. Still, Sam seems a bit sad that she didn't see him. Aw. :( Dean wants to stay for a while. It's revealed that Mary and John didn't have a perfect marriage, as they fight on the phone. Dean hugs her and tells her it's okay, that Dad loves her and he does too. Again, aw. :( Sam says he never realized how long they've been cleaning up Dad's messes. Wow. Sad but true, in a way.
A Route 66 postcard leads them to one of Sam's heavens. One where he was in Flagstaff and had a dog named Bones. Awww! Two puppies sharing the same frame. ;) It's not such a happy place for Dean, though, because apparently Sam had run away and Dean thought he was dead. Still I loved the interaction of Sam and the dog. Jared must have been in his element in that scene... I think it shows. :)
Then they flash to another "heaven" of Sam's - the night he left for Stanford. Turns out that all of Sam's good memories were all of Dean's bad ones... one's heaven is another's hell. And although we only saw one of Dean's heavens (well, two if you count the first one with Young!Sam, but we didn't even see "our" Sam in that one), Sam didn't seem all that happy in it. Dean can't believe that this was a good memory for Sam. He tells him "I'm your family, we're a team." Sam insists he's right when another beam of light appears and Zach starts chasing them again.
Wow, he's an unrelenting b@$tard, isn't he? He says he will get them to say yes when he's done with them. Someone comes to their rescue though and leads them away (and puts a sygil of sorts on the door to keep Zach away, apparently). Who does it turn out to be?
Ash!! In the roadhouse! "Welcome to my blue heaven." Hee. But from what Chad Lindberg has said at the cons, you'd think he'd have a bunch of babes with him there, lol.
He tells them everyone has their own heaven, that it's not just one big place. There's a "Winchester Land", an "Ash Land," etc., and in the middle is a garden. He's got an angel police scanner (the laptop!)
Next surprise guest is Pam! Wow, am I the only one who was kinda disappointed to not see her hitting on Sam or calling him "Grumpy" again? She went for Dean instead. She first whacks him in the head for getting her killed (although Ash is cool with them getting him killed). He apologizes but she says she's happy here. Dean says it may seem happy but it's "Memorex" and the real stuff is down on Earth. It's like she's convincing him to say yes to Michael, but he tells her people will die. She says they'll just come here, and is that such a bad thing. Wow, would she really say this, or is Zach somehow at work here?
As they're about to leave she only tells Sam to watch his ass (I think that's what it was... right? I was so disappointed she didn't say anything coy to him, lol), but smooches Dean, saying it's just as she pictured it.
The boys end up back at "home." Mary appears and asks Dean why he's up, if he's having a nightmare. She suddenly turns dark, telling him about her "nightmare", when she died, burning up. The blood appears on her stomach through her nightgown again. The boys turn to leave when she orders them not to. She tells Dean she never loved him ... he was her burden. Ouch, that hurt. Her eyes then flash yellow. Yep, this is all Zach's doing. He appears and tells him "everybody leaves you, Dean. Ever ask yourself why? Maybe it's you." Definitely trying to see how far he can push him into saying yes, isn't he?
He roughs Dean up and berates them further when suddenly Joshua appears, telling him "the boss" wants to speak to them. He takes the boys to a "garden" (which turns out to be a botanic garden where they went on a field trip).
Um... wow... what he told them just really leaves me cold. God wants them to back off? He doesn't want anything to do with this? I pretty much figured it was God who saved them, put them on the plane and saved Cas, but that was the extent of it? Dean seems like he doesn't want to give up, and Sam isn't sure he's telling the truth because he's not the first angel they've met. Joshua assures them he's not lying. He mentions Dean having lost faith in himself, in his brother, etc., and that God is his last hope. He sends them back but tells them God wants them to remember. Um, okay, maybe it's just me but I'm getting not such a great vibe from this guy. Sure, he sounds nice and all, but I just can't believe that God would abandon them. That He would go to all the trouble of saving them and Cas, and then leave them alone to sort this whole thing out? I wonder if Joshua is somehow influenced by Zach or working with him. Maybe I'm getting too far ahead here, but I can't believe that's just it.
Anyway, they go back to the motel room where they were shot. Wow, deep, deep, deeeeeeeep breath there, Sammy! Cas appears in the room with them and says that maybe Joshua is lying. The boys don't think so. Cas turns and, addressing God (presumably), "you SOB. I believed." Ouch, that breaks my heart. :( He gives Dean back his amulet, saying it's useless. Sam tries to talk to him but he disappears. He then turns to Dean, who looks so broken and tells him that they'll find a way, together. Dean doesn't say a word but tosses the amulet in the trash.
Ouch. It really hurts. :(
So what do we have here? We see that one person's heaven is another's hell, in the boys' case. All the "heavens" for Sam were pretty much times when he was on his own... at a classmate's house for Thanksgiving dinner, in Flagstaff when he ran away, and when he was leaving for Stanford. Dean's heavens were that 4th of July with Sam, and home as a little boy before Mary died. We see more of the emphasis on family and togetherness with Dean, and more of the emphasis on independence and rebellion (?) with Sam. Wow, could that be any more blatant? *sigh* We see Dean losing more and more faith, convinced by Joshua that God is not going to help them... God, who was pretty much Dean's last hope. His throwing the amulet away was pretty much testament that he's on his own now, and so broken that it looks like he could easily say yes to Michael.
Sam, on the other hand, seems committed to finding a way out of this together with him. I wonder if what Dean said about not liking these "heavens" of his and they're being a team affected him somewhat. We saw at the end of last week's ep, where he kept asking if Bobby was going to be okay, that he really wants to find a way out of all this. Maybe this made it all the more stronger?
It seems to me that Sam is even more committed to saying No to Lucifer, but Dean is getting closer to saying Yes to Michael. And I really don't think I believe Joshua. It just doesn't track that God would go to all this trouble to save them and then bail on them.
This show just breaks me so much. And it looks like something big is going to happen next week, going by the end of the promo. I won't say what it was so I don't spoil, but I hope next week's doesn't break me even more. It really has me wondering what will be in store for season 6. But I guess I shouldn't think too far ahead.
All in all I liked seeing some of the familiar faces. Zach is a guy you love to hate, but I was almost hoping to see God strike him down or something here, lol. Still I just want to give our boys a great big hug. *sigh*