jessm78 (jessm78) wrote,

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I totally hate PMS...

Okay, so I know I just posted in here a few hours ago... and I know that it's way too late and I should be in bed since I'm working tomorrow... but I have too much on my mind and I need to vent.

So I wasn't online at all this past weekend since I didn't think I'd have internet access at the motel and didn't bring my laptop.  I went back to Gateworld to catch up on a few things.  I went to this one thread I'm subscribed to, basically one showing off artwork that a friend posts... mostly wallpapers.  So a bunch of people posted daniel/vala ship walls, one person gushed over them and asked if it was possible to do another ship (I think sam/cam) wallpaper. I said to this other friend of mine (she was one who posted d/v walls) the artwork was nice and asked if they could do a sam/daniel wall, but only if it doesn't make them sick... I put one of those jokey smiley faces because I was being silly when I said it.  I know not many people like my ship and I was just joking about it.

I'd emailed her earlier because I had a question about where to find some huge pics of the Stargate (I'm in the middle of a drawing I want to present to Michael Shanks at the convention).  She replied and gave me a link to a website for the pic, and then says she'll do a s/d wall for me and that it doesn't make her sick.  But she said I have to stop putting comments like that in my posts because they really bother a lot of people and she doesn't want anyone talking behind my back.  Which makes me think that people ARE talking behind my back about it.

Seriously, I think a lot of people, and I'm talking mostly about Daniel/Vala shippers (though I don't mean ALL of them, just some that I've observed), need to understand why I do this.  They don't have to be self-deprecating over their ship because they get to see so much of it, and it's so darned popular so they can be so totally serious over it and they can post about it with reckless abandon even in areas that don't have much to do with it.  Sam/Daniel is like the ugly, red-headed stepchild of the Stargate ships.  We have been scorned quite a bit and we know it, so some of us like to poke a bit of fun at that.  I don't see what the problem is.  I mean if people find it a little annoying, that's one thing, but it's gotten to the point where I'm almost afraid to post many pictures of Daniel with Sam on a thread devoted to Daniel/MS for fear that people will yell at me for it (and it's happened before - a year ago they told me to keep it in the S/D thread).  Yet people can post all the Daniel/Vala pics they want and don't get in trouble.  I'm sick of the double standard, and it made me think that everyone loves D/V so they don't mind it, but they're sickened by S/D so eww, don't post so many pics of them over there.

So anyway I try to joke about it sometimes, and it just seems like there is so much Daniel/Vala stuff on a Stargate forum, even in threads that have nothing to do with it really. 

I'm at the point where I don't care if people talk about this crp behind my back, if they hate my ship then whatever, I'm used to that.  But part of me doesn't want to bug people and turn them off.  And it makes me wonder because sometimes when I log onto GW, everyone will suddenly take off in threads that had at least a few people posting.  If people have a problem with me I'd like to know about it and then I'll go away and leave them alone.  Seriously.  But I wish they could understand why I do this, I mean they don't know what it's like to be a fan of something that's so unpopular.

Jeepers I can't believe I'm obsessing so much over this.  I loathe PMS, I really really hate it.  And Wendy, if by any chance you're reading this, I don't mean any offense or anything and I hope you don't hate me for any of this.  If it's one thing I don't want, it's losing friends over something as stupid as this. 
Tags: stargate, stargate: gateworld, stargate: sg-1: daniel, stargate: sg-1: daniel/vala, stargate: sg-1: sam/daniel, websites

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