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19 April 2013 @ 08:09 pm
So...  
I'm trying not to freak out too much over my hair, really I am. It was tough last night, though. I got really tired, read in bed for a while and then felt myself drifting off to sleep. I'm not sure how long I slept, but then I had a bad dream that I just kept losing my hair constantly and was afraid to even touch it for fear of it falling out. That unnerved me a lot, and then my brain went into overtime thinking about all the stuff we're rushing to get done at work. So I was kind of a mess this morning. My stomach was a little upset, although I ate some candied ginger and it settled down. I didn't feel very much like eating though.

Unfortunately, the village clerk had something for me to do that didn't take very long. And then she got really busy, so I didn't have anything to do for a while. Which made me start thinking too much about my hair and made me upset. I have my own office though, so no one saw that I was upset (I'd be embarrassed to admit what was going on with me anyway). But... I don't know, I just thought to myself that it doesn't pay to keep dwelling on it so much, that most of the time, things usually aren't as bad as I'm thinking. I'd done some research last night on this and was upset about info I read about alopecia. Some people said their hair grew back but then fell out in other areas of their heads, and a few just ended up losing all their hair. So naturally I get upset and think it's going to happen to me.

But again I said to myself that it doesn't pay to worry so much, that just because it happened to these people doesn't necessarily mean it will happen to me. It might not even be the same thing. I'll find out from the doctor tomorrow. I just hope he can get to the bottom of it and that it can be resolved. I'll try to stay positive. I've also reassured myself that it's not really that bad. You can't even tell unless I pull my hair straight up and out from my head (I guess it's good my hair is so long lol). It's a pretty small area and my mom even said it looks like some of my hair may already be starting to grow back there. Again I'm trying to stay positive. Thanks guys for your encouraging comments yesterday, it really did make me feel better to read. *group hug*

I'm so exhausted. I walked Abby after I got home and she did want to play a little after we got back. I played fetch with her for a minute or so and then told her that mommy wants to take a nap. I laid on the sofa and I think she could tell I was really tired because she didn't make a fuss. She looked out the window and then sat in the chair. She's such a good dog (well, most of the time...).
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*angi_is_altered on April 19th, 2013 09:53 pm (UTC)
(((((((HUGS))))))
jessm78: Supernatural: Sam/Dean hug in Mystery Spjessm78 on April 19th, 2013 10:11 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, sweetie. ((((((HUGS))))))
strgazr04: Jensen butterfilesstrgazr04 on April 19th, 2013 10:09 pm (UTC)
I understand what you're going through with your hair. I have alapecia. Lucky for me (:/), it's part of the dna of my disability. So I've had bare sections of hair for as long as I can remember. My hair is also very thin and fine so trying to cover those missing areas is terribly hard.

I will tell you that if you unfortunately find that it isn't stress (which it most likely is since it happened to suddenly), there are work-arounds. I use a compact powder by Joan Rivers collection that you brush in to hide the pale skin of the scalp in the empty areas. There are also products to make your hair thicker and fuller. One I've seen on tv is by Aveda though I haven't tried it myself. Lastly, if your hair does get worse, you can have your existing hair grafted into the missing areas.

Bottom line though? I really don't think this is anything but stress. If it was more than that, you would have noticed more than just one area of your hair slowly getting thinner and more bare. I hope this helps!!
jessm78: Jensen Ackles: You Rock from CC'10jessm78 on April 19th, 2013 10:17 pm (UTC)
Oh gosh, I'm sorry to hear that. :/ My hair is pretty fine too, but luckily I have a lot of it so the bare spot is covered up pretty well (unless I lose more... really hoping not).

It really makes me feel better to know there are work-arounds like that. I've done a little research and I've heard about the Aveda stuff. I also heard that supplements like B vitamins and Iron were good for this sort of thing. I might try that out too (I'm already taking Biotin because some of my fingernails are pretty funky... which I'm starting to think is stress-related too).

I'm really thinking that's probably it. It's pretty odd how I didn't even notice it at all until yesterday. But my mom said she thinks some of it is starting to grow back. I'm hoping so, I guess I'll know more tomorrow at the doctor's. Thanks hon, it really does help! *hugs*
strgazr04: Jensen butterfilesstrgazr04 on April 19th, 2013 11:25 pm (UTC)
No problem. I would definitely have a doc double check, yea. Also, you might want to change to a satin pillowcase. Sleeping on that has less friction meaning less pull on the hair when you toss and turn and also it's supposed to be healthier for your skin. :D
jessm78: Jensen Ackles: Magazine Shootjessm78 on April 20th, 2013 11:20 am (UTC)
Thanks for the advice! :) I'll definitely look into that. I have the doc appointment soon, hopefully it'll go well. *crossing fingers*
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jessm78: Supernatural: Sam/Dean hug in Mystery Spjessm78 on April 20th, 2013 11:11 am (UTC)
Yeah, I have to have my yearly physical soon so I'm going to get them checked again.

I'm seeing the doctor in a little while so hopefully he can shed some light on it.
Yellowbulma: Gabe want's a hug.yellowbulma on April 20th, 2013 01:39 pm (UTC)
Aww Hon so sorry your going though this. I wish you luck with the doctor's tomorrow.
jessm78: Supernatural: Sam/Dean hug in Mystery Spjessm78 on April 20th, 2013 01:43 pm (UTC)
Aw thank you hon *hugs* I just posted an update about it... I'm not really too sure what to think now although I'm trying so hard to think positive.
Yellowbulmayellowbulma on April 21st, 2013 06:57 pm (UTC)
Off to read update!!