jessm78 (jessm78) wrote,

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I'm trying not to freak out too much over my hair, really I am. It was tough last night, though. I got really tired, read in bed for a while and then felt myself drifting off to sleep. I'm not sure how long I slept, but then I had a bad dream that I just kept losing my hair constantly and was afraid to even touch it for fear of it falling out. That unnerved me a lot, and then my brain went into overtime thinking about all the stuff we're rushing to get done at work. So I was kind of a mess this morning. My stomach was a little upset, although I ate some candied ginger and it settled down. I didn't feel very much like eating though.

Unfortunately, the village clerk had something for me to do that didn't take very long. And then she got really busy, so I didn't have anything to do for a while. Which made me start thinking too much about my hair and made me upset. I have my own office though, so no one saw that I was upset (I'd be embarrassed to admit what was going on with me anyway). But... I don't know, I just thought to myself that it doesn't pay to keep dwelling on it so much, that most of the time, things usually aren't as bad as I'm thinking. I'd done some research last night on this and was upset about info I read about alopecia. Some people said their hair grew back but then fell out in other areas of their heads, and a few just ended up losing all their hair. So naturally I get upset and think it's going to happen to me.

But again I said to myself that it doesn't pay to worry so much, that just because it happened to these people doesn't necessarily mean it will happen to me. It might not even be the same thing. I'll find out from the doctor tomorrow. I just hope he can get to the bottom of it and that it can be resolved. I'll try to stay positive. I've also reassured myself that it's not really that bad. You can't even tell unless I pull my hair straight up and out from my head (I guess it's good my hair is so long lol). It's a pretty small area and my mom even said it looks like some of my hair may already be starting to grow back there. Again I'm trying to stay positive. Thanks guys for your encouraging comments yesterday, it really did make me feel better to read. *group hug*

I'm so exhausted. I walked Abby after I got home and she did want to play a little after we got back. I played fetch with her for a minute or so and then told her that mommy wants to take a nap. I laid on the sofa and I think she could tell I was really tired because she didn't make a fuss. She looked out the window and then sat in the chair. She's such a good dog (well, most of the time...).
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