Log in

No account? Create an account
21 November 2006 @ 02:59 pm
I'm trying...  
Well, it's day 3 of rampant PMS and I am trying to get control of my feelings and outlook. So far I'm feeling better.

I was a mess this morning. Those argumentative exaggerating hens over at that Gateworld thread were bent on continuing this stupid fight. They insist they don't hate me and don't want me to go, yet their meanness still comes through in the way they write. At least the girl who made that post to me last night is being a little more reasonable. However, she PM'd me and complained that I talk about S/D in every single post I make, which is a huge exaggeration. I hadn't brought up S/D in probably 2 months - no way is it in every post I make. Then another girl PMs me after I apologized to the thread and says she cannot take it anymore and wants me to please stop bringing S/D up in every post that I make. Why do people think they have to exaggerate in order to make a point? It just comes off as a lie. She insists she doesn't hate me and doesn't want me to leave, yet she sounds very angry and yells in her PM at me.

I'm through with all this. I made one more post in that thread ... told them I made a mistake and I apologize - but no more PM's yelling at me to stop because I've learned my lesson. If they refuse to end it, that's their problem. I wonder if they're just put off because I dared say something that might have been less than 100% positive about MS. Give me a break - I'm still a big fan of the guy, I like his acting, I respect his opinions, but I'm not swallowing the kool aid that he's some huge, perfect god. We're all human and we all have our own faults.

But anyway I was a mess when I read these PM's and posts directed at me because whenever people seem mad at me, it makes me think they hate me. I don't think this way all the time - just when I have the old PMS and things bother me more than usual. And I hate to ever have anyone mad at me. I guess I shouldn't worry so much about what other people think though.

I'm feeling better now, though, luckily. There are a few people there who are nice and gave me encouragement, plus I talked to a few friends who made me feel better. As weird as it sounds I think a Snickers bar may have helped me too, lol... I read an article once that said that eating some chocolate may be good if you have PMS because the chocolate has some kind of thing.. pherols? I can't remember what it was called...but it's supposed to help your moods a bit. Maybe my blood sugar was a little low too. I'd like to do some exercise - I know that is supposed to help - but it's too cold to go out walking today. :p Maybe I will do some situps and lift some weights when I get home (I have some small, 5 pound weights).

So now that I'm feeling better I guess I'll try to get a few things done here, lol... can't wait to go home and sleep.
Tags: ,
Current Location: in front of computer
Current Mood: calmcalm
TB: s/d love-jivefishteddibear on November 21st, 2006 07:12 pm (UTC)
*hugs* hey Jess, it's Gwen (Vala) from the con. I have no idea what's going on (I'll catch up later) but gah that sucks what they're doing. I was contemplating registering over there and saying hi but I'm kinda afraid that when I do someone will point me out as the crazy Vala that wouldn't leave Michael alone with the questions. I saw you guys on there when I was reading through the thread on the con and so far noone has said anything negative towards me (which I'm kinda worried about) so I'm wondering should I just not draw attn to myself or go say hi anyways?

*hugs* if it helps any, I thought you three were way cool and you can talk S/D around me all the time :) Since people have to put up with my insane Daniel ramblings anyways.

*hugs* and feel better. I fly back tonite. Oy. I'm so tired. Glad you two made it home safe. :)
TB: d/v whoops-boutondorteddibear on November 21st, 2006 07:26 pm (UTC)
Ok so I just realized you weren't one of the people I met (so no I'm not a crazy stalker, ask Chris) I just confused you with one of the other girls (which I apologize for but it's been such a long weekend and everything is just running together). Still and all, hi there. Take what they all say with a grain of salt. And I'll let you hug the monkey anyways. Just ask Chris about it.

So um. Hi, I'm Gwen, crazy Daniel/pretty much anyone shipper (including Daniel/Sam) and it's nice to meet you. BTW, I really do like your site :)

jessm78: Thor's Hammerjessm78 on November 21st, 2006 09:07 pm (UTC)
That's okay! Eh, it's an easy mistake... I have the same name as one of the con-goers you met - Jessica... though she goes by "Jessica" and I go by "Jess"...usually...

But all the same, it's nice to meet you too! :D Thanks for posting! And yeah, I'm going to take what they say with a grain of salt...not worth it getting myself upset over.

I was wondering what the monkey was about...at first I thought it had something to do with Jack's nickname for Daniel... but I'll ask Chris anyway (can't wait to hear what it is, heehee). And thanks for the kind words about my site! :)

*hugs back*
TB: daniel smile-imthelobsterteddibear on November 21st, 2006 09:51 pm (UTC)
I guess I'll have to show a pic :)

Me, Michael, and the Monkey. He's an Undead Camo SpaceMonkey (named by my fan club LOL). His name is Dr. Danny J. O'Neill (and you shoulda seen MS' face when I said THAT. Doh!) and he's well, look at him. He looks like Daniel. And yep it does refer to the nickname Jack called him. At least MS got that part right. When you press his arm he says, "Now, where's my Daniel?" in my "Vala" voice and we're attatched by our "Kor Mak" bracelets (Save Our Stargate Camo Bands). He was part of my costume as a modified mercenary Vala from The Ties that Bind. Now he's just a new official Creation Con mascot according to Adam. *g* And he's quite exhausted. He had as long a weekend as I did :) But he does give great hugs.

LOL, see that's what it was. I knew I had met ANOTHER Jessica and it was like, wait, who's who? So it's Nicole who has the other LJ. We need to get Jessica on it. :) And nice to meet you as well. I think we'll get along ok. Like I said I ship Daniel with pretty much anyone-Jack, Cam, Janet, Sam, and Vala (which atm is my biggest ship) and it pretty much depends on the ep, the season, and the situation. I guess it's cuz I can see Daniel being compatible with anyone really. :)

You're welcome. Good S/D fic isn't easy to find. And I love the way the site is set up :) Keep your chin up! Oh and you may like my next sg_100 claim. It's gonna be called "The Wondertwins" and it's all Sam and Daniel :)

jessm78: kissesjessm78 on November 21st, 2006 11:52 pm (UTC)
Ohhh I get it now! Heh, that's really cool! LOL - I can imagine the look on his face when he heard that. You're so lucky you got a pic with him. I was so disappointed when he cancelled the NJ con, and there was no way I could go to Burbank (I'm from NY and my work schedule didn't allow me to fly out there *pouts*). Hopefully he'll come back out this way next year!

But anyhoo - that's really clever!

Yeah, we do need to drag Jessica on it so we can all talk. I'm cool with your ships. I don't mind who people ship and I respect them as long as they respect me. So no prob there. :)

*blushes* Thanks! I used to have it on Angelfire (actually think I still have a version of it there but it hasn't been updated in a while), but they didn't give me enough room so I put it on a paid server. I still have a ton of things to add to it - and I plan on putting some music videos up there too once I get my first one done.

I'm also thinking of making a little hub of the site be just for Daniel - "Daniel's Den." I even have a background image for it. :) I can't wait to read that "Wondertwins" fic - sounds good!

*hugs back*
TB: daniel arm porn-jennghis_khanteddibear on November 22nd, 2006 11:36 am (UTC)
Hee, thank you :) And it does suck he cancelled on that one but maybe you can see him next year :) And boo, bad work!

Oh yes the look was priceless. I mean just imagine one of Daniel's WTF? looks and there you have it. I really wish I coulda snapped a pic. Hee. And thank you. I quite loved the idea myself and hee, now I have an official con mascot. :)

Very cool. I'm the same way. I can respect other ships. I may not understand them *coughSam/Jackcough* but I can still respect em. So I think we'll get along fine.

Ooh, now that sounds like a neat idea. Daniel's Den eh?

And hee, I should clarify, I don't really WRITE fic. I'm oh so much better with a ficstick or beta-ing. I do graphics. So the sg_100 claim is 100 icons of Sam/Daniel. After I finish Bandanna Danny of course. *g*

*hugs* :)
jessm78: kissesjessm78 on November 22nd, 2006 01:26 pm (UTC)
No problem! Yeah, I read a con report where he asked someone if they were at the NJ con, and he then said that he felt bad about having to cancel out on the fans like that. It's nice that he cares so much. :) Heh, one one of my groups a bunch of us were actually talking of doing our own fan-run con and try to invite him, maybe Amanda and Carmen too. Not sure if we'll ever be able to do it, but we've been discussing it and doing research. If it ever falls through... maybe I'll get to see him next year anyway!

LOL I made a Daniel icon like that...let me dig it up...
Someting like that? ;)

Cool! Yeah, that's how I am, and I know what you mean about that.. *coughSam/Jackcough* ;)

Oh, I totally spaced out there. Christine belongs to a fic challenge group that has a similar name, so I thought that's what you mean. But the icon idea is cool - can't wait to see what you come up with! And I love Bandanna Danny (aka "Bandaniel"). :)

*hugs backatcha*
TB: daniel cat nap-artifussteddibear on November 29th, 2006 04:05 am (UTC)
That's EXACTLY the look! *snerk* And ooh a fan run con sounds interesting. :)

Hee, good to know we're on the same wavelength. And that's ok, I know that the fic and graphic comms seem to carry the same names. But yep mine is a graphics challenge. It's 47 icons done. I'm obsessed with that damn bandanna I tell ya. :) I have a serious bandanna kink :)

Bandaniel? Oh I dunno if I like that. I'll stick with Bandanna Danny *snerk*

You can track my progress here. All icons are ripe for the taking :) All I ask is that you share. And feedback is loved! :)

jessm78: S1 promo picjessm78 on November 30th, 2006 11:09 am (UTC)
Heheh... that scene always gets me, when he's staring at Harlan like "okay what is with this crazy little man?" ;)

Niiiice! They're coming along very well and I just love the title "Daniel, just how many bandanas do you own?" The first time he wore it in S1, I wondered if he was having a bad hair day and thought the bandana would hide it well? ;)

Bandanna Danny does have a better ring to it... blame the Hussies at the Daniel/MS thread for "Bandaniel" *grin*

Again, I love 'em! I've been making new Daniel icons here and there... should probably share them. Just one question: how did you make that grid thing? Was it from the challenges community?
TB: daniel cat nap-artifussteddibear on November 30th, 2006 06:02 pm (UTC)
MS actually signed an 8.5x11 of that banner for me without the sg_100 claim stuff. Hee! And I got that tagline from a fic.

If you scroll to the bottom of the post, you'll see a link to the icon table. It was in the FAQ for the community I just modified the original coding a helluva lot. I don't work with tables too often but I knew enough html coding to tinker with it :)

I was wondering that myself. LOL @ the bad hair days. The first time we see the Bandanna is in The First Commandment and he wears it under his helmet! LOL. I remember reading that MS put a bandanna on the alt Daniel in Double Jeopardy because the wig looked so incredibly horrible. He hated that thing. Honestly though for me his worst hairstyle was the supposed "Hathor" do from Out of Mind and Into the Fire which was in his Hamlet stage. Ugh, bowl cut much? I do miss the long hair but I love the short hair too. I couldn't see him with long hair these days. But I wish we could see more of the Bandanna. I cheered when he wore it in Babylon and Fourth Horseman II (why yes I DO know every ep he wears it). And I did like the boonie. Sometimes ya just wanna huggle him so much cuz of the boonie. LOL makes him look very young. I didn't like the boonie on Jack though. Much preferred the ball cap on him.

Yay for more icons :) LOL oh yes Harlan was nuts. Hee!